A life update. | dragonteach's Blog
I decided it might be a good thing to update what has been going on with me. And one thing I haven't mentioned in all this time, at least that is what a few of you have said, is that I was in the hospital for a mental illness. This was months ago and I am in a program which is helping me to learn to cope better and become independent. So, I am doing rather well most of the time. Lately, I have found myself very happy. I have put together a happiness journal in which I put down what has made me happy throughout the day. Every day I have several different things I can say have made me happy. And some of it is the people I have here on EP. So many of you do things to get me smiling, I couldn't possibly stay too depressed for more than a week or so. I have gotten some distressful news today. One of my dear EP friends has gone to the hospital with a severe heart attack. As of right now he is in the hospital still uncouncious. I know there isn't anything I can do except send healing thoughts his way. So, that is what I am doing hoping he will be well again.
Today has been a weird sort of day for me other than getting that bad news. I forced myself to go out in the cold to do some shopping. I walked across to the stores in this plaza. It is so cold out there with the wind, I could hardly breath. But, I made it to the first store I wanted to go into. It happened to be a clothing store that is going out of business. It is hard for me to find good clothes in my size in my price range. So, I took advantage of it today. I bought three pairs of different colored jeans and three tops to go with them, plus a bra that originally would have cost around $40 and the total for all of it was only $40. I love it when I can get such great bargains. I have never had expensive clothes like this before. I mean the original prices on all of this stuff is more than I would have ever paid. I would never pay $40 for a bra, I don't care if it was covered n gold. But, when it is priced $4 I didn't mind at all. And it is a beautiful one at that. Sitting here wearing it with no shirt on, I really like how it holds me up. And then I went to a craft store a little farther on and bought a few things I have been wanting and a few things I happened to see. So, my shopping was a great success. Then I had to walk back home into the arctic wind. Took my breath away. And with the cold, the artheritis in my hip and lower back get hurting very badly. So, I was glad to get back to the warm apartment with my goodies. Then, not to long after that, I have to go to the pulmonologist. Been having problems breathing and sleeping. Plus, I was told I have a black spot on my lung that needs to be watched over. So, the wonderful doctor, and I do mean wonderful, asked a few questions, gave me a few things to read and told me I have COPD or emphesima. And I have sleep apnea. But, to be sure, I get to have a few tests done. So, add a lung condition to the rest of my ailments. And more medicine, I have two inhalers now. When I travel now I look like I am a pharmacy. Need a suitcase just for the medications. And of course he wants me to loose weight, which I agree with. And I have to stay away from certain foods for a while as well. I figure it is just one more thing to deal with and let it roll off my back. No worries right now. So, that is where I am in a nut shell, not the nut house again. Except where ever I live can be considered the nut house. Keep smiling and thinking good thoughts.
This is funny. I was so busy talking about today, I didn't mention what a wonderful day I had yesterday. I had a wonderful male visitor. The first one in a very long time. We had a great time together. I loved what he did for me. And how much attention he gave me. This might sound funny when talking about a stranger I had sex with but he is kind and considerate of my feelings and needs. I spent the day with a huge smile on my face, as well as last night and all day today. And every so often, I would moan under my breath with a memory of what he did yesterday, that is how good it was. So, I had a great time yesterday, so I could hold onto the memories while I go through a few sad times.
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