Here I am once again. | dragonteach's Blog

I made it.  I have to say, I stuggled, pushed, shoved, argued with myself, fell down, got up and kept going and made it to this time and place. I have been building my life up to where I want it to be.  I am becoming the woman I want to be.  I am proud of myself and like myself for me.  I know now what kind of person I am and am wanting to become.  I also know, I love sex still and love to have people admiring my body and what I like to do on line.  I do want a man to be with me and respect me for who I am.  A man who wants to love me for who I am and not want to change me.  I have decided I am in control of my life and I am not letting go of that control to anyone.  I will stand up for myself.  If I don't, who will?  I am evolving into a beautiful butterfly.  I am spreading my wings.  Right now I am in training to become a sexual assualt advocate.  Seems I can't stop helping people in any way. 

Does it seem like I am being self centered and selfish?  Then, you really don't know me.  If you knew me at all, you would know  how hard it has been for me to believe in myself.  How hard it has been for me to take care of myself.  And how hard it is for me to know I need to come first if I want to help any one in any way.  It is not being selfish to take care of ones self.  It just makes for a better person who can reach out to others.  Be proud of me.  And know with all the struggling I have done, I have come out on top of the shit pile.